I'M DECAYING?

Just when i thought things were better, they've gotten worse. I recovered from my cough attack more or less, without antibiotics or heavy medication, so i'm quite happy. But i'm still stuck at home. I only saw the light of day like, hm.. twice in the past week and yesterday. Other than that, i've been sitting around the house, listening to music, reading, watching tv, eating lots, and just waiting for nightfall where there are more good tv programmes.

Life has deserted me. Or... have I deserted life?

Everyone seems busy with their own thing. Somehow, people have kind of slipped away into worlds of their own, and oddly, we used to meet up every other day. Only a few best friends of mine have come around looking for me. I'm glad they do.

Being sick really sucks. Actually being sick for more than 3 days suck. Thats when you evaluate yourself, your friends, your purpose and meaning of life. Think. The only thing you're allowed to do when youre sick. Anything else would make you ill. I have a friend who's gone through the same thing. She was really depressed when she was sick. HAHA. I'm not weird. i hope..

Asides that, I met up with Zack on friday night. He's like a brother to me, thoguh I havent seen him in such a long time... We ended up in Karma in Hartamas, stumbled upon Happy Hour there, and didnt leave till 1am.. He made me feel much better about a lot of things, although i didnt have to mention them. He's the most humble and modest person I've ever come across. No matter where i end up, happy or sad, he makes me appreciate life and what i have better. He'll say something like "hey mannn fuck you mannn.. youre special, i'm special, we're no different. what the hell.. stop living a lie!!!" which actually makes me feel like yeah man what the hell, youre just like me, you've got problems too and youre just like anyone else man.. Plus the environment at KArma is such that no one gives a hoot who you are or what you're doing there. Karma plays silly old songs too, so that was great. I like it there... It was a good night.

Ahh. A saviour is coming to my house to lunch with me. Just when i thought i'd stay home yet again, ask the maid to cook something, and do my routine of tv-ing and so on..

The truth is, i wake up so late, that my sister or brother takes the car before me, leaving me absolutely motionless. Cars are very important. See what happens when you dont have a car? You'd end up like me; rot and slump around the house in your pjs till you decide to shower.