HI ALLLLL

I'm abit tired of xanga for now. Go to www.myrrh.blogspot.com. Its my old one and its more reliable. I can't seem to update here, and my flooble box is gone and i'm really lazy to go get another one. sigh.

SUNSHINE

I was in Lucky Garden doing some errands, when I met the morning sun. Gosh, it feels so good to have the sun in my face and on my skin. Its so.. warm. For once, i eliminated thoughts of shady shelters and let myself walk with the sun. Somehow, I felt a little more alive. Hehheheh. 

The sun went away and it's pouring with rain now. It makes me sleepy.

On the bright side, I'm waking up earlier in the days. I'm being less of a night demon, just a demon now. HHAHAHAHHAHA. just kidding. No, I am turning into a morning child. Morning dew and sunshine + smiles and friendly waves to your neighbours + bright blue skies... eew. so fairy like right. I'm getting scared of myself... But then all this will change when jay gets back.

I havent had pork mee in ages. *gasp* i havent had pork mee at ALL this year!!! *gasp* Im a 2005 pork me virgin........noooo.... nvm. Soon, soon. *GASP* I havent had kopi peng this year either! I havent even set foot in a chinese coffee shop this year! gosh. this has got to change.

I'M DECAYING?

Just when i thought things were better, they've gotten worse. I recovered from my cough attack more or less, without antibiotics or heavy medication, so i'm quite happy. But i'm still stuck at home. I only saw the light of day like, hm.. twice in the past week and yesterday. Other than that, i've been sitting around the house, listening to music, reading, watching tv, eating lots, and just waiting for nightfall where there are more good tv programmes.

Life has deserted me. Or... have I deserted life?

Everyone seems busy with their own thing. Somehow, people have kind of slipped away into worlds of their own, and oddly, we used to meet up every other day. Only a few best friends of mine have come around looking for me. I'm glad they do.

Being sick really sucks. Actually being sick for more than 3 days suck. Thats when you evaluate yourself, your friends, your purpose and meaning of life. Think. The only thing you're allowed to do when youre sick. Anything else would make you ill. I have a friend who's gone through the same thing. She was really depressed when she was sick. HAHA. I'm not weird. i hope..

Asides that, I met up with Zack on friday night. He's like a brother to me, thoguh I havent seen him in such a long time... We ended up in Karma in Hartamas, stumbled upon Happy Hour there, and didnt leave till 1am.. He made me feel much better about a lot of things, although i didnt have to mention them. He's the most humble and modest person I've ever come across. No matter where i end up, happy or sad, he makes me appreciate life and what i have better. He'll say something like "hey mannn fuck you mannn.. youre special, i'm special, we're no different. what the hell.. stop living a lie!!!" which actually makes me feel like yeah man what the hell, youre just like me, you've got problems too and youre just like anyone else man.. Plus the environment at KArma is such that no one gives a hoot who you are or what you're doing there. Karma plays silly old songs too, so that was great. I like it there... It was a good night.

Ahh. A saviour is coming to my house to lunch with me. Just when i thought i'd stay home yet again, ask the maid to cook something, and do my routine of tv-ing and so on..

The truth is, i wake up so late, that my sister or brother takes the car before me, leaving me absolutely motionless. Cars are very important. See what happens when you dont have a car? You'd end up like me; rot and slump around the house in your pjs till you decide to shower.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

New year's eve wasnt as fun as I expected it to be. Partially because of me anyway. I got surprisingly drunk to the point where i couldnt stop puking. There is speculation that I might have been drugged. Then again, my fatigued body might not have been able to withstand the alcohol content absorbed. There were and there are many different possibilities as to how I became that way. Anyways, I got up with a normal hangover. The kind where everything's ok, just that you feel lethargic and abit lifeless and you feel really silly for what you did the night before. In my case, it was the excessive bogging, and everyone watching me. Gosh, I'll not forget this new year's eve. It's the most embarrasing state i've ever got myself into. I'm abit whisky-phobic at this point of time. I'll stick to my beers next time. Much safer.

The hangover left me a surprise gift. A cough. This cough gave me a headache, and later a fever. How bad could this get? I asked myself... Apparently, i should see a doctor. But i think not. The doctor will bombard me with antibiotics, syrup and pills. Yucks.

I'm currently recovering from this horrendous coughing fit. It sucks to be me right now. Ohh the pain. Ohh the horror.. *sigh*

So my dear friends, how was YOUR new years eve? 

DRY SEASON...

Christmas came, and left.. Well technically there are supposedly 12 days of christmas.. but celebrations have ended. Coming up next, New Years Eve, New Years Day and the morning after.

I ate too much this year. For a week, I was a rubbish bin. I had so much food that I can't eat much now. Its like my tummy is going on strike or something. Graciously, I didnt get food poisoning. I was SO expecting that. OR diaorrhea at least. haha.

And now, as if I've been so hectic with people and food, I'm feeling really drained. I can just sit at home and do nothing and be happy. I'm feeling really awkward. I need some alone time. Or quiet gatherings. Just for now i guess. Night times are fine.. I always feel more alert and alive and uppy moody at night. It is the daytime(s) that make me feel useless.

Today I went for drinks at Telawi Street Bistro at 3pm. Caught up with some really good friends of mine and im back home again, after some shocking, heartshaking, brainbursting events, which i'm probably not in liberty of speaking of. Jay is away today, in Roturua? Rotorua? Rotuora? I dont know how to spell it. And i'm really (again) bored. I seem to feel bored on a constant basis.. There just isnt much to do! That sounds like a silly lame excuse for being lazy, which i hope i'm not.

I have put on weight.